Sunday, August 7, 2011

How to deal with this guy...?

Okay...soo I'v been with this guy for about 2 and 1/2 years. We were kind of off and on for the first year, and then we were steady for a while. The only problem we've always had is his trust/jealousy issues. I've tried talking to him about it, I've tried to be understanding, but we started having the same fight bc of his issues all the time and I got really tired of it. I can't take that anymore, so I broke up with him. Now, before when we would break up a lot, it was always him initiating it, and Iw as really hurt by it, but he changed and things were good except for the trust/jealousy. Anyway, he's really really upset about the break up and i don't know what to do. It's not that I don't love him, I love him so much, but I feel like for once, I need to put myself first instead of him, and I deserve to be happy. And it's not that he doesn't make me happy, it's just when it's good...it's so good, but when it's bad, it really sucks...and I feel like we're just going around in circles. I've talked to him a few times since breaking up with him, and he's taking it really hard. Like, crying. And this guy is like a football player, he's huge, and he's not one to show emotion like that. So obviously I feel really bad becuase I know he's heart broken. Well...I told him that I think it would be the best thing if we didn't talk for a while because if we keep talking to each other, we're (more so, he's) never going to get over it. He got laid off, so Iknow he's dwelling on me because he doesn't have anything to do during the day, he's not sleeping, he told me he thinks he's having anxiety attacks...and I just don't know how to handle the situation. I care about him and love him, but I know it's not right to be with him. We keep trying to make our relationship work...but I don't think that's right, I think it should just work. So, he texted me last night telling me he wants to keep talking to me and eventually see me, and asking if I still love him, then he said he never knew he could hurt so much, and if he can't really see me, at least he can see me in his dreams. So like...I really don't know how to handle this situation. I love him and care about him, but I can'tstay with him if it's not right, and it wouldn't be right for me tobe with him bc he's upset...that would make it worse later. So...how do I handle this?

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